The Links That Throw Us into Samsaric Rebirth

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We were talking about the first link in this chain of dependent arising and we saw that this is the link of unawareness and it has to do with unawareness of how we and others exist. The main emphasis that we need to focus on is ourselves. We saw that there are two levels of this unawareness: there is the doctrinally based level and the automatically arising level. We’ve discussed the doctrinally based unawareness and the disturbing emotions that derive from that. 

Automatically Arising Unawareness 

The automatically arising unawareness or ignorance is something that nobody has to teach us. We all have this in every lifetime, no matter what we are reborn as. We have automatically arising unawareness when we are in an animal rebirth as well. This is the misconception that we exist as persons, as individuals, that are self-sufficiently knowable – in other words, persons that can be known all by themselves, without simultaneously knowing anything else. 

Basically, we all have this automatically arising unawareness. If we have as well the doctrinally based unawareness, we think that there is an independently existing, unaffected, monolithic “me” that can be known all by itself. Even if we realize that this does not refer to anything real, and even if we realize that the “me” is just something imputed on an ever-changing stream of continuity of aggregates, we can misconceive that it can be known all by itself. 

What does this actually mean? For instance, when we look at ourselves in the mirror, we think, “That’s ‘me.’” It’s not that we think, “There is a body and on the basis of that body I’m seeing ‘me.’” We think we’re just seeing “me,” by itself. Also, we could see ourselves in the mirror and think we see our “selves” in the mirror, and then we say, “Well, that’s not ‘me,’” for example, if we are looking older or too heavy or something like that, “Well, that’s not ‘me!’” We think of a “me” that is knowable, separate from that image in the mirror or the number on the bathroom scale. 

This belief in a self-sufficiently knowable “me” manifests in so many different situations. One of the most common is, “I want you to love me for ‘me’ – not for my body, not for my intellect, not for my wealth, not for my possessions – just love ‘me,’” as if there were a “me” that could be loved separately from these things. Is there a “me” that can be loved separately from all these other things, just by itself alone? Further, “I want you to respect ‘me,’” or, “I want you to pay attention to ‘me.’” We don’t think, “I want you to pay attention to my voice, or what I’m doing, and on the basis of that, you’ll be paying attention to ‘me.’” 

We don’t think that, do we? Automatically it feels like, “Pay attention to ‘me,’” and the self is sufficiently knowable. This leads to all sorts of strange views, like, “I need to go to India to find ‘myself.’” What is that? Or, “I’m a creative artist, and I need to express ‘myself.’” Or we were drunk last night and we said and did all sorts of strange things and then we say, “Well, I wasn’t ‘myself’ last night.” Who were we? Then, we get all sorts of dualistic thoughts as well, “I will treat ‘myself’ to an ice cream today,” and “I will force ‘myself’ to get up,” as if there were two people there. 

Of course, we have the same false view of other people as well. We think, “I know Helmuts.” What do I know? Can I know Helmuts separate from knowing what he looks like or the sound of his voice? Or, “I see Helmuts.” What am I seeing? I can’t see Helmuts separately from seeing a body. Or, “I’m speaking to Helmuts on the telephone.” What is that? That’s really weird if we think about it. “That’s Helmuts on the phone.” Well, it’s a voice – it’s not even a voice; it’s a vibration of some membrane being stimulated by some electric current, with a person imputed on it and we designate that person with the name “Helmuts.” However, we don’t think that; we think, “I’m talking to Helmuts.” 

I think one of the most common examples for us as Westerners is the example, “I want you to love me for myself. Just love ‘me.’” “I want somebody to love ‘me,’ someone to pay attention to ‘me.’” Of course, based on that misconception of a ‘me’ that could be loved all by itself, then we get all sorts of disturbing emotions, “You don’t love ‘me.’” Then, we get angry or attached, or we have greed, desire, jealousy, and all these sorts of things. This automatically arises; nobody had to teach us that. 

Even when we act constructively, like helping and doing nice things for others, it could be based on this misconception of the self-sufficiently knowable “me,” that “I’m doing this so that you will love ‘me,’” or “so that ‘I’ will feel useful,” as though there is a separately knowable “me” that could be useful. I mean, what’s useful? The body is useful, the hands are useful, and the mind is useful – on the basis of that there’s a “me,” but certainly we don’t think that. 

This is something that we have to understand, that this type of “me,” the false “me,” doesn’t exist at all; it doesn’t correspond to anything real. We exist conventionally as “me,” “I’m talking,” “I’m sitting,” and so on. It’s not that it’s somebody else. What establishes that there is such a thing as a conventional “me”? All we can say that what establishes it is that “me” is merely what the concept or category of “me” refers to when labeled on the basis of this ever-changing stream of continuity of body, mind, etc. – the aggregates. Also, it is merely what the word “me” refers to when designated on this category and this ever-changing stream of aggregates. 

A Subtler Misconception about the “Me” 

Now, even if we understand that the person, or the “me,” the individual, the self, or whatever we want to call it, can’t be known by itself, but has to be known while also cognizing the basis of imputation of it, like a body or a mind or a personality or whatever. Even if we realize that “me” has to be known that way, there is a further, subtler misconception that’s asserted by only the most sophisticated schools of theories in Buddhism. 

This is the misconception that even though “me” is only something imputed on the basis of these aggregates, nevertheless, there must be some characteristic feature or mark, an individual defining characteristic on the side of the basis; in other words, it’s on the side of the aggregates that allows for a correct labeling of “me” with the category “me” and a correct designation of it with the word “me.” We think there has to be something here inside that makes me “me” and not “you,” something special that makes “me” an individual. 

It’s almost like a barcode or some genetic code that’s inside, and when we label it with a scanner – boom – there comes the price. “There’s some individual thing inside ‘me’ that makes ‘me’ special, and makes ‘me’ an individual.” That’s subtler and also false. This is very interesting. How is it that when I look at this body, am I scanning a barcode on its side? Then, the answer pops up in my head, “Helmuts,” and that’s how I know that it’s Helmuts? Furthermore, what if I look at a series of photos of him from childhood on, how do I know correctly that they’re all Helmuts? They look quite different from each other. How does that work? 

On the most sophisticated level, Buddhism says, “There’s nothing findable on the side of the object that makes it what it is; it’s purely in terms of convention.” We can’t establish that this is Helmuts by anything findable on the side of the basis, the body or mind or anything. We can only establish that it’s Helmuts by the fact that there is this name “Helmuts” and it’s designated on this and other people agree. 

What even makes an object a knowable object? Is there some sort of line around it that separates it from the air and things like that, and then on the inside of this line, that’s the body and it’s Helmuts? The outside of the line is not? No, there’s no line there. If we really look in an electron microscope, it’s very hard to find a boundary between the atoms of the body and the atoms of the air, the energy fields and so on. It’s established by the mind. Yet is there a body here? Is there a person here? Well, yes, conventionally there is. Everybody would agree. 

Based on not being aware of this, because it doesn’t seem and feel like that, it feels as though there’s something special about “me” and there’s something special about “you” that makes you either so wonderful or so horrible. Then, again there are so many disturbing emotions that come up on the basis of that, “I want this one. I want ‘you’ to love ‘me,’ not that one. It doesn’t matter if the other ones love ‘me.’ I want ‘you’ to love ‘me.’” “I’m special. There’s something special about ‘me.’” Then, when we don’t get what we want, we get angry and frustrated. 

Questions 

What use in this situation then is liberation or enlightenment if there is no atman, no soul, or no “me,” no nothing basically? Why do we then do all these practices? 

This is the confusion that many people have about these teachings, which is that they represent a completely nihilist position that denies and refutes everything.

We still exist; conventionally, there is a “me.” It’s just not something that exists in impossible ways. It doesn’t exist as something all by itself, totally independent of anything, not affected by anything, that can be known all by itself, or that has something on its own side that makes it special. That kind of “me” doesn’t exist. However, conventionally, “me” exists. 

There is the subjective, individual experiencing of things and on the basis of that, we label “me,” “I’m experiencing.” What establishes the “me”? Well, nothing on the side of the mind or the experience. The only thing that establishes that there’s a “me” is the word “me,;” it can be labeled. This kind of “me” exists. 

That’s only the name, the label. Right? 

Well, the label refers to something. For example, Gone with the Wind is not just the title. Gone with the Wind is an actual movie that the title refers to. It’s the same thing with the word “me.” 

What exactly is imputed or labeled by the name “sentient beings,” then? 

As I explained, a sentient being is a person with a limited mind. It’s a category because there are many individual sentient beings and they’re all individuals, but they do not exist totally isolated from each other. We all have a nose – my nose isn’t your nose, though. What is a nose? It’s not that we all share in the Great Nose in the sky. It’s not like that either. However, we could ask, what are the defining characteristics of a nose? “It sticks out from between the eyes and we can use it for breathing.” 

Does a chicken have a nose? Does a worm have a nose? Does a worm breathe? What is a nose? This is very interesting. Where does the nose begin on our face? Is there a line that separates the nose from the cheek? People made up a definition and wrote it in the dictionary and that’s what a nose is, but we can’t actually find that on the side of somebody’s face. However, conventionally, we all have noses and they’re individual. It’s the same thing with “sentient being” and “me.” His Holiness the Dalai Lama loves to use the nose as an example because it’s silly and when people laugh, it makes things a little bit lighter. Otherwise, sometimes we get very tense trying to understand something difficult. So, it’s a good example. 

Nonetheless, this is a very difficult point. How is it that there is a conventional “me,” even though we’re talking so much about voidness, the absence of an impossible “me”? This is a central point of all the philosophical discussion: how do we establish the “me” that actually does exist? The Zen solution to somebody who asks that question, “Well, nothing exists, I don’t exist, etc.” is to hit them with a stick! Then to ask, “Who felt that? Did you feel that? There’s no ‘you?’”

You said that there is no one kind of big mind that we are all plugged into, like no one nose. Then, the question is whether all minds are the same size? 

When we speak about the mind we’re speaking about mental activity, so size is irrelevant – size is a quality of something physical. Do they all have the same capacity? Yes, but the capacity can be limited by the hardware in which it’s functioning. What the mind can understand on the basis of a human brain is quite different from what it can understand on the basis of a worm brain. 

Now we get into really weird stuff if we start analyzing this further. I don’t know if we really want to get weird here. However, the clear light mind has a certain energy that is associated with it, the subtlest energy. That then becomes associated with the gross elements of the body. Based on that, we can feel sensations all over our body, different parts of our body. So, I’m not going to go into a detailed analysis of all of this, but then the question is: how is it that we’re aware of something outside of our body? Does the energy go out to that? Does the energy from that object come into the body? 

As a Buddha is omniscient, that means that the subtlest energy of a Buddha is on the basis of everything. If it’s on the basis of everything, then that’s the explanation of how it is that a Buddha can manifest simultaneously everywhere. This starts to become very weird because then we have to be very careful that we’re not falling to the atman extreme, that the atman is the size of the universe. We would get into very weird subtle stuff here. You see the problem: the clear light mind of a Buddha is omniscient and it takes everything as its object, so the energy pervades everywhere. If we can label “me” of a Buddha onto that, are we labeling the “me” of a Buddha onto the universe? Do we have an atman/Brahman thing? Well, we don’t. 

It’s the same issue as what I said about the connection of the clear light mind and the subtlest mind with the gross elements of the body. One has to be very careful here. Also, we have to appreciate that this whole discussion is within the context of Indian philosophy and basically they all talk about the same issues but just solve them in a different way. To really appreciate Indian Buddhism, we have to understand it in the context of Hinduism and Jainism and all these other philosophies. 

Buddhism and all the other Indian systems say that the energy goes out to perceive objects, so it’s like our attention goes out to the object. The Western systems say that the information comes in, so that’s very different. How that actually works, I must say, I don’t recall. I once heard an explanation of it, but I don’t recall it. I would have to look that up. It’s a very difficult point. 

There are lots of discussions about whether that consciousness or that energy can be a truly existent, solid thing that goes out. However, how does it go out? First, does it notice that there is something and then it goes out to look at it? That doesn’t make any sense. Further, if it doesn’t notice anything and it goes out blind and then all of a sudden, does it see something? This starts to become very weird and these are the arguments that are used to refute that it’s some solid, findable thing, this consciousness, cognitive sensors, powers and so on. However, that’s for a more advanced discussion about voidness.

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